Signs

It is no secret that the past month has been an emotional roller coaster.  We found out that there was a new position with Chad's company in Winston.  He spoke with the manager and found out he was definitely a (the) top candidate.  We barely spoke about it because I was about to have a baby...the baby came a few days early....but, right on time.  When the baby was six days old, Chad was offered and accepted the position.  We told our families the news that night.

This major decision is right for our family.  It should have immediately made me feel happy, excited, overjoyed...but, it made me feel so, so very sad....deep down sad.  I couldn't even begin to think of telling our friends and church family that we were leaving.  It took me three days to tell anyone other than our parents, even then, I didn't tell anyone in person...I emailed or sent text messages because I was way too emotional.  It was such a strange range of emotions...so sad, but knowing that eventually i will be so happy.  We are moving back to the state that I still call home.  Carolina born and bred...and when I did I'll be Tar Heel dead...for real now.  We will no longer be "from off."  We will be home.

While I am convinced, deep down, that this is indeed the right decision...the best decision...the decision that will allow our kids to grow up close to their grandparents and cousins...just like we did...the right decision isn't always the easy one.

I have been sad.  I have cried....more than you can imagine.  I have had second thoughts.  I have been in denial.  I have been stressed...but, mostly, I have just recently started to process this big move.  Until yesterday I hadn't even thought of looking at houses in the Winston area.

But...all along, I have trusted in God's timing.

Here is another sign that shows me he is present in all the details.

In the past two weeks, I have come across this bible verse at least 5 or 6 times.  It was even the topic of discussion in our Sunday School class - we weren't at the class, thanks to baby Sawyer being awake all night, but 3 different friends talked to me about the discussion.

Again today, on facebook of all places, the verse was right in front of me.

Thankful for the signs that continue to reassure me that this is the right decision...for my family, for my kids, for myself and for a greater reason that I have yet to see.  He already knows the plans...I'll be patient and see how it all unfolds.

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.