Today marks the 1 year anniversary of my Grandmother's death. It is with great sadness that I enter this posting. It is so hard to believe that she has been gone for one whole year. It is truly a year that has flown by in my mind but there has not been a day that has passed without me thinking of her. I often wonder what she would think in certain situations, I often think of what her response would be and (and laugh as I hear her little voice), I still expect her to answer the phone and say "Hey Pookie!" and occasionally I am happy to hear the message on the answering machine when my Papaw does not answer. Most importantly, there is not a day that passes that I do not wish she could see Payton. I know she sees him...and occasionally I think she may be coming out in his actions! It would have brought her so much to joy to hear his first words, see his first steps, watch him at his first Christmas, see him eat cake at his first birthday, and hear his tiny little cackle that is almost as unique as her cackle was! She would have loved to have seen him swimming a few weeks ago with Bailey and she would love to watch him play ball. She would probably tell him of the times she played ball and how much better she was than all of the boys. I wonder if she would think he was "queer" for appearing to be left handed? Yes, she would! I wonder if she would have taught him a dirty word or two by now? Yes, she would have! I wonder if she would have laughed if I told her he got kicked out of nursery! Yes, of course!!
Nannie, I still remember how happy you were to meet little Payton for the first time! I think you rubbed off on him! He is a wonderful little child...just like his mother!! I know you are in a much better place with much less pain and I know you are enjoying watching over us from above. I'm sure you laugh at my struggles with Payton. He definitely has a good dose of your genes in him! Hard-headed and stubborn...wait, maybe that could be either me or Chad in him! I just wish you were here for one second so I could see your smile and see how happy you would be with how special and adorable your great-grandson has become!
We love you so very much!
Nannie and Papaw meet Payton for the 1st time. She was SO excited to hold him! He was so great. She loved holding his green pacifier in his mouth.
Mother's Day weekend 2008
Again, she wanted Payton all to herself! She would have sat there holding him all night long if we would have let her. He brought joy to her and a smile to her face that we had not seen in quite some time!
Me, Nannie, Payton, Mom and Aunt Linda on Mother's Day
It was such a wonderful day!
Papaw is doing a great job taking care of those beloved cats! Mom is doing a great job taking care of Papaw. I believe Payton brings Papaw the same joy that he brought you. Payton played with one of Papaw's trains the last time we were home. You would have enjoyed it as well! I hope you know that we love you and we sure do miss you....every single day....damn it!
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